I was very sad earlier this year,
I didn’t want to continue living because I felt like I am only a burden and a cause of grief to those surrounding me, I haven’t complained to you because I knew you would give me happiness after… ‘with hardship comes ease’ I wanted to believe in that of all my heart.
And then something beautiful happened, you gave me the most beautiful blessing, one I never imagined to be able to have even If I longed for it, you gave me a way to keep that blessing and I truly tried my best, I was so happy, I have never been happier my entire life. Everyday I would pray to keep it.
But without meaning to, I have ruined it, and I let go of it because you said that it was the right thing to do, I try having patience and follow what you ask me to do, but although I gave it up for you, I still desire it with all my being, it’s my true dream, and only you can answer my prayers and give it to me.
You said you always answer a sincere prayer so please do, I am so afraid that I might start losing faith in you because you didn’t answer me when I needed you the most.
I need you, please give me my true desire.
You are good at something, stop lying to yourself. You’re good at breaking down comic book plots, cooking ramen perfectly, making your friends happy, knowing the time without looking at a clock, getting the perfect ending at RPG’s, or figuring out the twist ending to movies. Don’t let society tell you your talents are meaningless because they don’t serve an economical purpose. Your talents reflect your interests and passions, and what’s important to you is important.